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Open Your Eyes.. questions, assumptions & expectations [20 Oct 2009|08:04am] [ mood | why oh why? ] for the whole August and the third week of September (or let's just say before the whole typhoon thing), my life's been all about office, house and occassional meetings with friends.  it may seem boring and monotonous to other people but i find it really good.  maybe because i'm enjoying myself even though i'm not aware of it.  last week's been good, i got a huge amount of money (slightly bigger than my salary) from the employee assistance i got from the company...but then i got sick come Tuesday and i sprained my ankle last Saturday...okay, it's not really that good after all. anyway, it's been awhile since i worried myself over something that should be forgotten about already.  anyway, this is just me over-analyzing things once again.  i just remembered that back then, i wanted actions to prove words but now i want words to prove actions.  back then i used to whine saying "why aren't you doing this?" now it's more of "why are you doing this?" it's really confusing, really. i'm trying not to think about it so much because i've been doing that in the past and it really didn't do me much good.

Open Your Eyes.. sprained ankle [17 Oct 2009|08:13pm] "mama!!!" i called from downstairs. "oh (translated as "why")?" mama asked. "i twisted my ankle!" i answered. "oh." mama replied. i was completely dumbfounded (she should be kidding me!) while Ate laughed at the background. *sigh* that's why i love Mama so much! tsk.

Open Your Eyes.. worried up North [11 Oct 2009|01:11pm] [ mood | stressed ] for days, me and my family has been worried about our relatives living in Pangasinan especially after seeing the news on what happened there. i texted my cousin, Lala, who's living here in Manila right now if she have heard from her sisters in Dagupan. she told me that the flood in our place is the highest ever but they didn't need to evacuate yet. but that text from her sisters was still during the time that there's still electricity in the city, i tried contacting them directly but with no avail. i texted another cousin of mine who's living in Baguio City, good thing she replied to my message saying that she's okay and that she's nowhere near the landslide and everything. goodness, i'm having a pure paranoia. now, this is when i really believe that when PGMA said that Ondoy was a 'once-in-a-lifetime' typhoon, it is biggest and stupiest thing i've ever heard. i really wish everything will be over...

Open Your Eyes.. feeling hopeless [02 Oct 2009|09:39am] [ mood | let this be just a nightmare ] i really wish that whatever happened since Saturday never really happened. everything was going fine. everybody's living their lives the way they have always been. whenever i try to remember how i lived my life the week before the typhoon, i remember that it was so...normal. even the weather forecast didn't serve as a sign of what kind of a disaster is going to hit us come weekend. just like what my Besh (Joan) said, it feels like we were suddenly brought to a different dimension. i added that all of us were having a terrible nightmare that doesn't seem to end. even though things are slowly going back to what they used to be (all of us are going back to our offices everyday), coming home from a long tiring day from the office is so painful. everytime i sit on an FX (or during the time i was walking from LRT Santolan to Sta. Lucia), i can't help but feel to depress of our current situation. i can't stop thinking of the possible worse things that could've happened. i know we're still lucky enough that somehow we still have our house and our stuffs but i still find everything difficult. going home, all i can think of is how chaotic our house is. i mean, fine, we finally got rid of the waters and muds but we still eat our meals upstairs, the TV is not in its right place, the sofas stinks and as well as the rest of the wooden furnitures, we can't buy lots fromt he grocery because there's no car that will pick us up, and i still sleep at my sister's bedroom. for the whole week, even though i sleep way earlier than my normal sleep, i still feel tired and restless. yesterday, after i frantically walked from PBCOM to the FX terminal, i could feel my calf muscles pumping as if they are about to explode in pain and when i told my Ate about this, she said that it means i almost got cramps. well, i am not surprised - i'm even shock that my legs are still standing up and walking after all the tiring things it did since Saturday. now, with the new storm slowly approaching, i can't help but be paranoid about it. i honestly don't want to leave the house because i have no intention to be stranded here in our office or in any place when the stupid storm arrives. i want to be at home, in the comfort of my own room. *sigh* i really wish that this whole thing is just a stupid nightmare...and if it is a nightmare, i wish to wake up as soon as possible back to the time when everything was peacefully normal...

2 Open Eyes Open Your Eyes.. continuous struggle [30 Sep 2009|10:05pm] [ mood | depressed ] i was told by people and by news that Ondoy really hit Cainta, Marikina and Pasig the hardest, and i must admit i still couldn't believe how did that happened. though those places often have floods during typhoon season, it was never been this big. my twitter homepage is filled with twits about various relief operations here and there, addresses where donations can be sent, and the likes. these movements are no longer new, however, it's the first time that it was directed to us (us who are usually the one who are being asked to help people from other areas - esp provinces). i'm not used to all of it and i think i will never be used to it. so far, i feel really depressed. though we are luckier compared to other people, thinking about how we will fix our car, furniture, appliances...the whole house in particular, is really stressful. i applied for an employee assistance awhile ago with Ms. Joy helping me and Nica (she's more unfortunate compared to me) and i was thinking if i really should. but i know that i have to and i have the right to do so. after this kind of experience, i would really want to know what went wrong. this is the worse typhoon/flood that we experienced and was it because of global warming? or was it because of the developers poor management of the subdivision? or was it the government's lack of action? yes, somehow, i couldn't help but look for something or someone to blame which i know is not good but i believe that someone should be responsible. Arroyo said in her last SONA that our country is ready for any natural disasters...but here we are, appealing to other citizens unaffected by Ondoy, the private sector, the NGOs and other organizations, and foreign countries to help us get things back to normal. Ondoy really made Arroyo choke up her words that she just ended up saying that this is a "once-in-a-lifetime" typhoon. i was really irritated when i read those lines. though a lot of things are now back to normal, it's never the same. i, for one, have started going back to work since yesterday. i manage to arrive at the office even before my shift starts but, yesterday, i got home at 11pm. the traffic was terrible and i swear i was already crying while i'm sitting at the back of the FX thinking that i might not be able to get home. today, i took a different route - i took the MRT and the LRT but i ended up walking from LRT-Santolan up to Sta. Lucia Mall. somehow, it may seem that it was not that bad since i got home before 9pm but, goodness, my feet and legs are aching! now...i don't know if i want to go to work tomorrow but i know i have to. i need to earn some money esp now...*sigh* here are some pictures last Saturday during the peak of Ondoy's attack in our place [they're not perfect shots though like the ones that can make into the frontpage of the newspapers]: [that's the street (Sandylane) in front of our house] [that the street (Stoney Creek) to take when leaving the house] [the street at the back of our house - the wall there separates our village from Park Place] [the bakery across our house - two men were stranded from morning til afternoon] [the street sign - Hazelton, our street] [our living room and, yes, those sofas above some tables and chairs] [our mini entertainment room] [our dining room and kitchen...and yes, that our refrigirator=(] [our stove was brought to the 2nd flr..an idea courtesy of me, hehe:p]

Open Your Eyes.. during and after the storm [29 Sep 2009|01:01pm] [ mood | wants everything back ] last Friday, i remember myself being so excited for the next day. Saturday was suppose to be a movie date with college friends. Cheka and i even offered to pay for Malorie's expenses for that day just so she could ditch her work to join us (hahahaha). i stayed up all night, watching videos on Youtube until 3am. the rain's falling down nonstop since i left work at 6:30pm but i never thought it would result to a massive flood. that's why i was shocked to see flood flowing in front of our house when i woke up at 8am that Saturday. Ate even told me that she just got home at 7am and my Kuya couldn't get to leave the house to go to work. Mama also cancelled all of her appointments that day. i was to irritated by the typhoon and i even initiated a conversation about looking for a new house in a different location (like...in the south?). Cheka and i even decided to just push the plan even with just the two of us since Malorie was not permitted by her mom to join us. but in the end, we decided to cancel everything because i said that the water just kept on going up. for the time being, i played games on Facebook but then Kuya called me to take care of our puppies since the flood will definitely coming in. i frantically looked for a box where 11 puppies can definitely fit. when i found one and i went back to our backyard to get the puppies, i started crying and freaking out since a lot of cockroaches started to appear and i was so scared that they might start crawling at me the moment i bend down to get the puppies. good thing, my father went to me and ushered me inside the house, hence, he was the one who took care of the puppies. when i got back inside the house, the usual stuffs that must be brought upstairs during flood are being gathered. and since they don't want any distractions, Ate made me stay put upstairs (only moving when they call me for some additional help). the first time that they called for my assistance, i was surprised that the water is already inside the house because as far as i know i only stayed upstairs for less than a three minutes. after we got everything into safety, i went back to my room for some more games and Ate went on her room to get some sleep. after 30mins or so, i heard Kuya shouting my name again and i was surprised to see the youngest daughter of our neighbor Angela is with him. Kuya instructed me to help her wash up so i accompanied her to the bathroom on her 2nd flr (this is the 1st time i appreciated the said bathroom). good thing, she's already a highschool student so she doesn't need some assistance on taking a bath, haha. instead, i knocked on Ate's door to ask if she have some extra clothes since my Ate's body is smaller than mine and her clothes will definitely fit Angela more. hehe. what is so stupid of me is not putting the plug on the laptop while i was using it. so, yes, it ran out of battery especially when Kuya turned off our electricity. tsk. the only socket working is the one where the router was plugged. tsk. after some hour or so, Angela's mom and two older sisters arrived so she was more at ease already (she was so stiff while sitting on my bed, i couldn't get her to relax! hahahaha). another wave of panic went over the people in our house because the flood went up another notch. normally, the maximum height that the flood would reach inside the house is the 3rd step of our stairs (to those who have visited our house, you know what i mean) but then it started to go up to the 4th step so Kuya quickly carried our TV upstairs while Mama took off the wires of the PC so that they can easily be brought up. they gave up on the refrigirator since they know they won't be able to bring it up even just on one of the steps of the stairs since it was so full of other stuffs so they just focused on rescuing the foams of the beds but because the water is really rising fast, Mama wasn't able to save some of her clothes (when i say some, it means a cabinet full of clothes - she has more upstairs so no need to worry much:p) and ours too (the dirty clothes that were on the bathroom that was supposed to be washed up that Saturday). when we finally got everything in place, we waited for lunch time (i watched some news on Kuya's phone - yes, the TV-phone - so i was able to find out that the rain will only last until that night). we only have three canned goods and rice that was cooked that breakfast. good thing, our neighbors have more canned goods so we have a full lunch in a way. the electricity was turned off by Meralco for good also. just then, the water went up again causing for the refrigirator and the tables began floating. the refrigirator fell on its back. tsk. then Mama was having a major panic attack because her bag that has her money cannot be found (she found it after lunch though, under the waters in her room downstairs:p). the rain finally stopped that night. Angela's dad also finally joined us after making sure that their stuffs next door are all safe (somehow, they said that their TV have already began floating:p). i was able to take a bath despite the cold water. because of my awesome suggestion, they brought the stove and gas up so that we can cook food upstairs (haha. i must say that it was really cool!:p). we had dinner and i slept at Ate's room with her and Mama while Angela's family (all of them) slept at my room (i really must say that my room is really indeed big). my dad started cleaning up the water that night too so that the workload for Sunday will somehow be lessened. so Sunday! whoohoo! we had breakfast and we started cleaning up. Angela's family went back to there house as well so that they can clean up their house as well. it was so tiring especially since there's only little water to use since all of the houses are using water as much as they could. dealing with mud is such a headache and moving from place to another is really hand (we have to avoid slipping since we don't know what we might hit or where we might fell). Kuya ventured to go out the village to buy some mops and dustpans and food as well. good thing, we were able to bring the stove back where it belongs, hahahahaha. Mama prepared dinner and i took a bath. Ate massage my legs and feet with some oil before we went to sleep. i still sleep at Ate's room while our parents use mine. then came Monday...i'm so desperate to charge my phone so that i can text my manager, Ms. Joy, that i won't be able to go to work. so i told Mama that i would go out to look for a Ministop (where there are charging stations) to charge my phone and there's as well if they want to. but Mama don't want to give me hers so we used the new laptop (good thing it has 5 hrs worth of battery) to charge her phone and my iPod as well (hahahahaha). but they still allowed me to go out since there are a lot of things that need to be bought and we can't afford to wait for Kuya to come back (he went to work, grrr). after breakfast, i left the house. i waited for 15 mins to get into a tricycle, i just waited in front of our house since walking on the streets is so impossible due to the slippery mud. i boarded a jeep and went to Sta. Lucia but i have to get off halfway since the jeep could no longer push through the rest of Imelda Ave because of the vehicles parked on the sides. so i walked all the way to the mall. i even saw a dead dog while i was walking, it was covered with mud, poor thing. tsk tsk tsk. when i finally reach Sta. Lucia, i saw the Q Plaza (popularly known as Tropical) and saw a lot of people in line towards Mercury Drug. i remembered then that Kuya's girlfriend works there and she told us that flood also got in there. my eyes diverted to National Bookstore which is just beside Mercury and i saw lots of books being taken out of the store, so bad....there are so wet from the flood as well. anyway, i went straight to Robinson's where there's a Ministop. unfortunately, it's temporarily closed so i went straight to the mall. not all of the stores are open so i went to look down the basement and - oh goodness! - it was filled with flood. the grocery is in the basement so i start to panic. i mean, i didn't walked all the way there just to go back home with nothing! so i went to Sta. Lucia, posters saying that the grocery in Sta. Lucia Grand Mall is open. so i went there but i have to wait in line before i get inside. once i got in, i quickly looked for the stuffs i have to buy (good thing i have them on a list) and i'm constantly praying that it won't go over P1500 (that's the only money i have!:p). after buying everything, i went to the cellphone stalls to charge my phone and also my sisters, i only charge it for 20 mins since i can't stay long outside. so when i was on my way home, i got stuck in a major traffic until Karangalan. i thought i would me walking home again because i can hear the jeepney driver saying that he's running out of crude oil...good thing i got to our village before that happened. haha. when i got home, they only have lunch. they were telling me that they thought i already ate at the mall and i was like, 'with the money i have? how will i?!' although i was already thinking of buying a bucket meal from Jollibee. hahahaha. after i ate my lunch alone. i went back on helping them clean up the house. i was also able to text Ms. Joy, hehe. and once again, i took a bath after working and ate dinner and slept. knowing that i have to go to work the next day (which is today). all those things happened while we don't have electricity. hopefully, by now, Meralco already switched our electricity on. sleeping last night was such a pain because it was so hot! tsk tsk. so right now, i'm in our office, charging phones once again. tsk tsk tsk. i was able to arrive here before my shift, traffic was good awhile ago since i got here in less than an hour (could the traffic be that good even though there's no typhoon?). wonder what's waiting for me at home...hmmm? still more mess? i think it will take a week before we got everything back into place...

Open Your Eyes.. horror [23 Sep 2009|02:21pm] [ mood | still have nothing to do yet=( ] i still have a huge hangup from watching Ouija last Sunday. since then, i have been asking my Ate to switch off the lights in my room while i'm already in bed before i go to sleep. since then, i go upstairs with my eyes closed when all the lights are off, same goes with my bedroom. then i also resumed covering myself full with my blanket while sleeping. it feels so stupid! granted that i watched the said movie in our living room at high noon! or maybe because i watched it on my own. tsk tsk tsk. but it means that it's a good movie, right? because it did what it has to do? scare people off their seats. not like when i watch T2 where i swear i can almost throw anything i could to the movie screen because of its whole stupid storyline and special effects. or maybe it's just because October/November is just around the corner? yeah. ghost stories are starting to be told here and there and i don't like it. yeah, i'm such a huge coward when it comes to things like these. i remember when i watched a Regal Shocker movie starring Ruffa G. involving a cabinet that has a ghost/spirit inside, i don't want to see a cabinet at night when i sleep because it might open and something inside will come out of it. tsk. then i begin to be scared of mirrors (yeah, i know i look at mirror everyDAY), i don't want to see a mirror before i sleep that's why my huge mirror does not face my bed in my room and there is no possible angle to see my reflection while i'm in my bed. hehe. i'm just scared that a white lady might appear while i'm looking at it. haha. i remember when i slept at my Ate's room and her mirror is so visible from the bed, i chose to sleep at the farther side and she still covered the mirror with a blanket so that i won't be able to see anything. hahahaha. silly.

Open Your Eyes.. house life [18 Sep 2009|10:41am] [ mood | tired ] i have nothing interesting to say and all i'm thinking right now is whether or not i saw a cockroach crossing the streets of Ortigas Ext. while i was sitting the FX's passenger's seat. clearly, this is so stupid. well, i hope that's my last encounter with cockroaches today. my first one this morning really freaked me out! i was washing my hands on the sink inside our bathroom when suddenly a cockroach jumped down out of nowhere causing me to scream. i hate it. i quickly opened the bathroom door and went out. Mama was like, "Ano ba yan." and she went inside to kill the cockroach for me:D well, what can i say, i really hate those creatures and i really don't get what's their purpose in life. at least rats eat insects [right?] or something. speaking of rat...well, of mouse...we had one at home and we haven't caught it yet [well, no one's making the effort, hahaha]. thinking about those pests makes me think that our house really needs a major general cleaning. hopefully, we can get a new maid soon...please, please, please!!!! *cross fingers* the weekend laundry will really kill me if we don't get one soon! my body's aching until now from doing the laundry last Sunday. i know doing the laundry's not all that bad, in fact, everyone should know how to do it but with the everyday work and the one-hour travel to Ayala and back is really not good for me. i want my weekends to be work-free and all. well, call me lazy and i won't deny it:p i also got so irritated when the clothes on our rack doesn't seem to disappear. i asked Kuya why are there so much clothes when he has been ironing every night. he said that he can only finish one to two blouses and i was like when will he be ironing the clothes full time and he told me, in a jokingly fashion, that he will once he stops picking us up every night. i was really annoyed and Mama asked the question, "Bakit hindi ka kasi mag-aral mag-plantsa ng mga damit mo?" and i said, "Unfair naman un! Ako naglalaba ng LAHAT ng damit dito!" good thing she got my point since i think she laughed at that. well, i do have a point: if you have no time to iron my clothes, i would also have no time to wash yours. i mean, by not having time to wash yours, i would have time to iron mine, right? maybe the reasoning may sound so bratty but since we have no maids it is expected that all chores should be divided evenly. anyway, i was thinking of how will i get that across from the time i was taking a bath to the time that i was changing clothes. and i really wanted to get that one out of my system with Mama in the scene. hahaha. just so i won't appear as a spoiled brat but someone who is reasonable to demand "equality" at home. hehehe. and i don't care if Kuya's girlfriend was there or not (okay, that was really the bitch in me:p)! goodness! this is such a stressful life!

Open Your Eyes.. missing being lazy... [10 Sep 2009|01:08pm] [ mood | i miss bumming around ] as far as i know, back in the time when i was still going to school, September is the month that does not have any holidays at all (except for the September 8 which is the start of the Marian season)! that's why i hate September very much because i can't find any day to just stay at home, in my bed, all day (except during my junior and senior year in college:p). but now, things have changed and we're having lots of holidays in September which is causing so much haywire here in the office. well, it's because...the process goes like this: we, writers, get our loads (batch of articles that we will abstract) every wednesday. but we also pass our abstracts to the client on wednesdays - we call that day 'transmission'. so...if there are days when we do not have work, transmissions are moved on a thursday but the new loads still arrives on wednesday. and it's so bad! because before transmission we still have loads to do! Sir Alan, our editor, must edit all of our abstracts and...we are more than 20 writers here with more than 10 abstracts each! after that, we have to highlight the PDF files (the articles)! highlighting PDF files are fun since it seems so sophisticated and all and i only get to do that here but there are only two PCs that has Adobe Reader Professional (yes, an ordinary Adobe Reader - even if you have version 9 - cannot highlight PDFs) so most of us have to fall in line to the two PCs (and the fact that there are weeks when i have more than 15 articles doesn't help the situation). *sigh* if we do not have work on mondays, our editor lose one day for editing which means even though it's already wednesday and we already have new loads, we still have to wait for his edits. i don't like starting new things if there are still things undone. but i'm trying to get myself use to it so that i can finish my new load at once (talking about OCPD). good thing, they're already grooming new editors to help Sir Alan. but i really hope that all of us can have our own Adobe Reader Professional!=) well it can reduce all the hassle that we have to go through just to highlight our PDF files, haha. anyway, it is also because of the holidays that i'm losing one day of bumming every week. i have bum days - mondays and tuesdays - and because of holidays, i lose my mondays=p haha. it's a good thing that my OCPD is always pushing me to finish all my load by friday so i still have my tuesdays=) one of my officemates, Aina, was right. having vacant days sure are important even though you're killing yourself with boredom. and since i was only given seven articles to abstract this week, i finished them all at once awhile ago so...i can bum around tomorrow until wednesday! wheeee!!!

2 Open Eyes Open Your Eyes.. something new [30 Aug 2009|11:20am] [ mood | optimistic ] i got a haircut. so...no more long hair and half pony for me=( it's super short and i hate it! whenever i look at the mirror, all i see is me during mg 3rd yr high school days, how annoying could that be?!?!?!!??! i spent a lot of money yesterday...i bought a new bag and a leather casing for my iPod. ugh. really sucks, but i just told myself that i won't be able to spend much on my next salary since i would be paying Mama and Ate for the iPod. i decided to go on a diet. hahahahahaha! well, i miss my 2nd-yr-college figure which i got when i lived at a dorm. oh i remember those days, i only have P500 per week and i don't have any extra food with me, i just eat what the dorm provides - so basically, i just eat three times a day with each meal only comprising a literal one cup of rice (well, i can get more but i can't get an extra viand so what's the use?:p). my extra food? well, just the kariman at the Ministop. so, my diet plan? just one serving of rice during breakfast and lunch and no rice during dinner, just oatmeal. no fastfood (if it can't be avoided, i must only order some caesar salad or regular french fries). no softdrinks. no sweets (except for dark chocolate:p). water every meal with be mixed with apple cider and honey. only skyflakes for snacks. what else? i hope i can be able to stick to this. ugh.

Open Your Eyes.. random article from the internet [25 Aug 2009|12:17pm] [ mood | wow! ] [ music | Devotion - You're Not Alone ] since i'm not doing anything, i'm surfing the net for some interesting articles and i found this one from: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/3-ways-to-instantly-find-more-fulfillment-in-your-life-and-they-wont-cost-you-a-cent-503816/ 3 ways to instantly find more fulfillment in your life...and they won't cost you a cent What if in the afterlife you met all the possible “you’s” that could have existed? The wealthier you who never gave up and finally knocked down that door, the happier you who stayed with your partner through the tough times, the more fit you who stuck with the daily workouts, the more accomplished you who took the time to finish writing the book. As pondered by author David Eagleman*, this notion of "other you's" really got me thinking. In what ways are you fulfilling your potential? And in what ways are you leaving talent, love, and passion on the table? Following are three tips that don’t involve any massive life changes yet will propel you toward maximizing your potential: 1.  Protect Your Appetite for Learning When we lose our appetite for knowledge, insight, and education, we diminish the power of the brain. The latest research shows that the brain can form new neural connections at any time in life. Yet when we fail to exercise the brain and entertain new thoughts, it begins to sag, like a worn out body. A lazy brain can lead to Alzheimers and other disease.** Have heaps of time passed since you've been to the art museum or listened to new music or read a great book?  As Glen Dorman of The Institute of Achievement of Human Potential said, “Some kids go through their whole life believing that learning is fun and the only game worth playing. We have a name for such people. We call them geniuses.” (i totally agree with this quote:p) 2. Clarify Your Definition of Freedom Like so many Americans, I bought a house in 2006 when money was easy to come by. And now I’m throttled by a huge mortgage. I used to think that owning a nice home in a pleasant neighborhood spelled f-r-e-e-d-o-m. But now I’ve clarified my definition of freedom to mean living within my means.  When you let outside influences determine your freedom, there will always be a part of you straggling behind, shackled by the weight of the world, begging for another chance to live on purpose.  That inner straggler can cause a lot of strife. As Maya Angelou said, “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” 3. Consider The Power of Love I once read that all of our technology is an extension of the mind and its thoughts. There is not yet an example of technology that is an extension of the heart and its feelings. One day, we will create such a machine. As French philosopher Teilhard de Chardin said, "Someday, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tide and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love.”  And I believe that such a future technology will measure how the human being who sustains a high level of love will attract not just greater relationships but also fulfillment, abundance, and opportunity. Becoming the "wealthier you" might take years, and becoming the "more fit you" might involve painful changes in your diet, and becoming the "more tenacious you" might require a huge and prolonged shift in your attitude.   But the "more loving you" is one bear hug away. And the "freer you" is no farther than a 24 hour sabbath from the annoying cell phone. And the "more inspired you" is as easy as cracking open a great book. As I share in mine, before you take the massive and painful steps toward a more fulfilled life, consider the little ones...a amazing bite of exotic chocolate, a sidesplitting laugh, a walk in the warm summer night. by David Romanelli (www.yeahdave.com)

Open Your Eyes.. work days [25 Aug 2009|10:50am] [ mood | still nothing to do ] [ music | Vanessa Carlton - White Houses ] yesterday, Nica (my officemate) and i were so bum that we invented labels for Monday to Friday: - Sleepy Monday - Boring/Bum Tuesday - Lazy Wednesday - Busy Thursday - Fun Friday well, actually, it was just me and it was just supposed to be Monday but Nica made me think for the rest:p

5 Open Eyes Open Your Eyes.. back to work [24 Aug 2009|11:45am] [ mood | when? ] [ music | Nelly ft. Fergie - Party People ] ...well, not exactly, because i'm already done. hehe. had an awesome long weekend even though i just spent my Sunday just bumming in front of the TV. the gathering at Ging's was really awesome. saw some people i haven't seen for months like Dgae, Jam, Christa, Pau, (especially) Cep and even Ging, herself (i've seen Coco and Malorie last Thursday, and i slept over at Cheka's house weeks ago). unfortunately, someone was missing in action (*coughGelacough*). lots of food!!! i think i won't be able to get over the huge pizza that Dgae ordered, hahaha! that was the best! then there's our bestfriend, Youtube, who provided us with some entertainment but nothing can beat our own videos (too bad i didn't have mine - i have a video of Ging singing "Kailan":p), especially that of Sir Mabahague which totally made Pau's day! haha! there's also an advance birthday bash for Dgae:D will miss Ging and Jam for sure=( take care in South Korea=) [ps. Ging, remember my message for my beloved boys? don't forget to send it for me, hahahahaaha=D] *sigh* wonder when will be my next load of fun?

Open Your Eyes.. exhausted [22 Aug 2009|09:34am] [ mood | excited ] being sick really exhaust me. ugh. well maybe because i've been always sleeping late and i cleaned my room yesterday. i don't know. last Thursday, Coco invited me to join them (JZ, Jumbo, Ria and Malorie) to Trinoma. i waited for her so that we can go there together and then we had our MRT misadventure. i don't want to go to that, it makes me appreciate the slow-running LRT2 in a way. when we got to Trinoma, it was already closing time but the fun was pushed through.  i have to leave earlier than them though, Kuya picked me up through commuting since our car's unusable as of the moment (i ended up paying to all of our fares! sheesh!). today will be a fun day as well=) i'll be going to Ging's house with the others to watch a movie and to eat (haha). Ging will be leaving REALLY soon (again, haha). room cleaning yesterday was easy:p i mean, i didn't disposed a lot of things, only those that are hiding my tables and floor (yes! i got my floor back! haha). i love cleaning my room maybe that's why i always fill it up with mess and clutter. hehe.

2 Open Eyes Open Your Eyes.. colds [19 Aug 2009|10:06am] [ mood | hate it. ] [ music | Nsync - This I Promise You ] once again, i'm sick. and i don't like it. what's new? but it's just that i'm not very comfortable getting sick in a new environment (office). there are no armchairs and certainly no clinic/health service:p i'm pretty lost right now because, here... there's no Coco who will tell me get some rest once i got home, there's no Malorie/Cheka/Gela who will adjust all today's agenda so that i don't have to work myself much for the day, there's no Dgae/Ging who will give me a hug to make me feel a little better, and, lastly... there's no Joseph who will tell me to just stay home/who will get mad at me for still going to school//who will drag me to the health service/who will insist on taking me home so that i can get some rest/who will scold me and will make me promise that i won't show myself the next day. also, there are no classmates who will voluntarily adjust the aircon (oh yes, the office aircon is really irritating, i'm freezing here!) so i won't be too cold. hence, there are no people fussing about me which makes me feel more sick right now. there are no people who will help me take care of myself. makes me feel so sad...but i have no choice, i have to go through this because i know that i must not rely much on other people. i have to learn being independent in order to properly look after myself. but still...it makes me miss them so much...

2 Open Eyes Open Your Eyes.. unplanned purchase [17 Aug 2009|09:16am] [ mood | lazy mondays... ] last Saturday, while Ate and i were doing the laundry, she told me that i could ride on her credit card to buy myself an iPod. yesterday, we were at Abenson's and we decided to buy it already. unfortunately, her HSBC card needs to be replaced already. of course, she got pissed. she asked Mama if she brought hers and when she said that she didn't, she got more pissed (but still smiling at that! haha). so, using her BPI credit card with something around 3k, she asked Mama some cash so that we can just buy it already. and so we did. and now...i have a 3k-debt to Ate and something bigger to Mama, i promised that i will pay them in 3 months. *sigh*

Open Your Eyes.. genius [15 Aug 2009|09:04am] [ mood | lazy ] last Thursday, i got 22 articles to abstract. then later that afternoon, i got another three, which makes everything a total of 25. i was able to finish 11 then yesterday, i was able to finish 14...which means, i'm done and i have to wait for Wednesday again for the new batch of articles. until now, i'm still wonder how i was able to that considering that i only have 9hrs per day to work, especially yesterday that i even left 30mins early... sometimes, i feel like i'm a genius. not in the way that i always know the answer to everything being asked to me or being able to remember everything that i am taught of. i feel like i'm a genius in a way that i can easily learn new things in a snap. i can learn them with or without someone teaching me (well, it depends). if there's someone teaching me, i don't need them to repeat what they say for more than two times. if i learn things on my own, i rarely commit mistakes while learning. however, the downside is...i get bored after a period of time. when i feel that i have already learn everything i have to...

Open Your Eyes.. morning traffic [11 Aug 2009|10:20am] [ mood | pissed off ] oh, just months before i don't have any problem dealing with traffic...all i curse about is the turtle-like speed of LRT. besides, Marcos Hi-Way doesn't have that much traffic jam...unlike the infamous Ortigas Extension (dubbed as Philippines' longest parking lot - OH YES!). i left the house at 6:30am and i even skipped breakfast just so i can get here around 8am to 8:30am but no! i was able to get into an FX at 8am! sheesh! can just that Ever Gotesco Mall disappear? the traffic starts and ends in that mall, seriously. what's the need to keep it? the company have already gone bankcrupt and all! oh, of course, for the owners to acquire money...hell! their malls are already handled by the banks! they are just already renting it from them and all so what's the use? hmf. sorry to the Ever patronizers in Ortigas, but really, it's doing people no good at all. i can't really bear sitting inside a jeep for fifteen minutes as the said mall pass by my eyes - no, the mall isn't that big that it will take fifteen minutes to see its whole front but the traffic the mall is causing people to take fifteen minutes to see it as a whole. *sigh* i know i should just adjust my morning schedule but no matter what time i woke up it's always ends up like this. *sigh* calling the office of MMDA!!! i believe that the Ortigas Extension is no longer part of Cainta, thus, it falls under the jurisdiction of Metro Manila (besides, MMDA is taking over Juction which is part of Cainta which not part of Metro Manila...thus, they should do something about it! sheesh!). okay. i'm so done. really hate morning traffic.

Open Your Eyes.. one month [07 Aug 2009|05:39pm] [ mood | so weird. so surreal. ] [ music | Rascal Flatts - Blessed the Broken Road ] yesterday marked my first month in this company and i must say it still feels weird and surreal. i still can't believe that i'm already waking up around 4am to 5am to go to Makati City and straight to the tallest building in the said city. i still can't believe that i walk along the lobby of PBCom Tower and use its elevators up to the 42nd floor and sit in my own computer station for almost 9 hrs everyday. everything's just so surreal... just a year ago, i'm still wearing my UST AB uniform and is always battling my way to get into an FX and to comfortably sit in LRT. just a year ago, i still walk from Espana or from Laong-Laan all the way to the AB building. just a year ago, i have notebooks and pens that i use to take notes. just a year ago, i have to attend each of my subject and take down their homeworks, etc. i can't believe that everything's new now...now, instead of going to Santolan, i go to the direction of Junction-Cainta...instead of taking the train, i take the FX all the way...instead of going to school, i'm going to work... aside from that...there are new people...though i haven't established solid friendship with them, i can't believe that i'm already spending each and every day with these people - no more the familiar faces that i have accustomed to for the past 4 years... adjustment's not an issue for me though which i'm so thankful for...but it'll take time for all of this to sink in...

Open Your Eyes.. history overflow [06 Aug 2009|11:10am] [ mood | thankful ] yesterday was a non-working holiday because of former President Cory Aquino's burial. after witnessing her procession last Monday here in Ayala, i know that people once again will fill up the streets just to get a final glimpse of her (despite being in the coffin) and to give their final respects to the woman who have granted each and every Filipinos the freedom and democracy that we are experiencing today. i was not surprised that the whole affair turned out to be such a huge historical event. hundred thousands of people waited amidst the strong rain and hunger in the streets from Manila Cathedral to Manila Memorial Park. even us (me, Ate and Mama), who were just at home, watched all the events on TV seriously. come to think of it, our village was already flooded and the water is threatening to come inside our house but we still didn't dare to turn of the TV. haha. what suppose to be a 1-hr-and-a-half trip from Manila Cathedral to Manila Memorial Park became an almost 8-hr long procession. and watching it on TV was also tiring - when Cory Aquino's coffin was already sealed inside her tomb, i went to my room and totally fell asleep, making me miss dinner. tsk. anyway, it was overwhelming (even though i was just watching it on TV). i remember all the things i've learned about her during college (Asian Studies may not be all about history but it is history to the next level!), i was already in awe during those times and is now even more awed after seeing the love the whole world is giving her during her death. it was just soooo amazing. RIP President Cory Aquino. Thank you very much.

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